Firstly, for those who have visited my blog before- welcome back!!! And for those who are first timers, welcome and thank you for being here.
I used to LOVE writing this blog. Every Sunday I would write about wellness, music, yoga poses, quotes and experiences that moved me and I would share them right here. Many of you sent wonderful comments and words of encouragement which I am still so grateful for. I love to feel connection, its so cathartic to share my art & experiences and I hope to inspire others to do the same. Ultimately, to be human is to feel and to share as we navigate this uncertain yet beautiful world together. Even in times of darkness, which we currently know all too well, art is here to bring us together. To bind us in times of trauma.
“Music is a basic need of human survival. Music is one of the ways we make sense of our lives, one of the ways in which we express feelings when we have no words, a way for us to understand things with our hearts when we can't with our minds.” Karl Paulnack
I’ve been off grid when it comes to my blog and my music for a long long time. I am now a 36 year old “woman”, lucky enough to have 2 beautiful kiddos (my monkeys) and a lovely husband. I parked my music career for years believing that now I have a family and an inevitably ever increasing age that it was all too late for me. I convinced myself that performing and being an “artist” wasn’t even something I ever wanted. (Liar liar, pants on fire!)
I have definitely been lying to myself.
I told myself a narrative so fiercely I vehemently believed it. I would call myself a “songwriter” and tell people I don’t want to perform my own songs, I only want to hear other people singing them. I even managed to convince (most of) my family & friends. However, now I’ve unlocked my voice and my power! I am finally shedding whatever guilt and fear was hindering me from being able to express myself and be honest in what I want to do. I am going to whole heartedly pursue my career as a performer, writer and artist. The desire I have within me to create and share is overwhelming. Suppressing my calling only creates unrest and conflict inside my own body. Luckily, everyone around me is encouraging me to follow my dreams and I don’t know why I have waited so long.
I know I have been (still am) afraid. I don’t sit well in vulnerability or disappointment. After being dropped from 3 labels during my time in the industry, kicked out of the girl band I put my heart and soul into, trolled about my fluctuating weight and ignored by various peers and colleagues as soon as I was no longer relevant, I was broken. I was 23 with eating problems, confidence issues and was basically a total mess. I did not have the gall or strength to continue and I ran away from artistry because it hurt. It hurt like hell and pain is scary. My primal instinct to avoid more pain triggered the fight and flight response and I ran away as fast as my just under average sized legs could carry me. And thank God I did. I look at my beautiful family and I am so grateful and proud. I am a firm believer that although it’s hard to make sense of things sometimes, everything that happens to you is happening FOR you. In order to grow and learn I needed to be able to accept everything that had happened during my lifetime and lean into moments where I had been afraid of being vulnerable. The deep wounds within are where you find the most precious treasure. A heart that is broken simply lets in more light through the cracks. In softening instead of striving, I believe something beautiful can grow.
So, I’ve decided to embark on a journey of self discovery and I’m inviting you along for the ride. Every Sunday evening I will be releasing my blog and a pre-save link with an unheard song from different chapters of my life. The pre-save link is super important and it makes a humungous difference to whether the song gets heard or playlisted. Please if you can, pre-save the links from each blog and my song will arrive in the streaming platform of your choice as soon as it’s released. In my blog I’ll be talking about what has inspired me and the winding roads of my life that have led me right here right now at a perfect point to pick up where I left off.
PRE - SAVE Never Too Late here
My intention is to follow my soul’s purpose of creating art but also to create our own community of powerful, dynamic and creative people who are united in making the changes necessary to live our hearts’ purpose. Collectively we will lift each other up every step of the way and remember that nothing is impossible and it’s never too late. What is your dream? Are you living it? How can your life better support your purpose? These are all questions I’ve been asking myself over the last few months whilst I’ve been building my plans to follow my hopes and dreams. With the invaluable help of my friend and mentor, Indi Mills from Scale Music and resounding love and support from friends and family, I feel truly inspired and I am ready. Are you?! Let’s go!
Because it’s “Never Too Late” 🙏🏽
Below is a little snippet of the song. Click here to view it on youtube:
This song was written for Leona Lewis with my dear friends Keith Ross, Frenchie and Vein. These guys are a serious dream team based in New York and Miami and have all gone on to have incredibly successful careers in the music industry. It was an honour to create this song with them.
Love always,
Raquelle